Why I was on the verge of giving up on Youtube
2023 has been a tough year. I felt paralyzed by depression and insecurity about my work. My YouTube channel’s performance declined, and I became obsessed with always improving. I felt pressure to always post perfect content. But I’ve learned to build self-confidence and use negative feelings to fuel me. I’m optimistic for 2024 and plan to start an education-focused side business. It’s been a tough journey, but I’m back on track. 🙌🏼
🌟 Personal Struggles
2023 has been a challenging year for me, with struggles related to depression, anxiety, and creative insecurities. The thought of returning to a non-creative career crossed my mind, something I had vowed never to do. This year, I faced a constant state of paralysis, making it difficult to focus on my work and creativity.
Feeling Paralyzed
As a YouTube creator, my work is closely tied to my emotions, making it impossible to create content without being in the right frame of mind. I found it hard to express myself, and the declining performance of my channel only added to the pressure.
📊 Creative Struggles
The decline in my YouTube channel’s performance, coupled with the pressure to constantly create top-quality content, led to a loss of self-confidence and insecurity about my work. This, along with personal struggles, contributed to the biggest rut I have ever experienced in my life.
Key Takeaways
| Struggles | Impact |
|---|---|
| Paralysis | Mental Strain |
| Self-doubt | Creative Insecurity |
| Declining Performance | Professional Pressure |
📸 Photography Woes
My obsession with improvement and progress caused me to become overly critical of my own work. The pressure to constantly outperform myself led me to believe that every post had to exceed the last, leaving no room for mediocrity.
Quotes
"I felt like I was sustaining those gains at the gym versus actually getting bigger."
✨ Finding Resilience
Through self-work and support from others, I found the strength to overcome my struggles. Inspirational content and a renewed focus on self-confidence helped me turn negative feelings into motivation, fueling a new sense of optimism.
Key Achievements
- Overcoming Personal Struggles
- Rediscovering Self-Confidence
- Embracing a Renewed Focus
📖 Building a Brighter Future
Going forward, I plan to utilize my experiences to inspire others. I aim to build a business outside of YouTube, focused on providing educational content and sharing my knowledge with a wider audience.
General Rebrand
| Goals | Expectations |
|---|---|
| Business Expansion | Education Focus |
| Personal Growth | Creative Freedom |
🌈 Embracing Change
Despite the challenges I faced, I am determined to continue pursuing my passions and sharing my knowledge with others. I am optimistic about the future and excited to embark on a new journey in 2024.
Personal Reflection
"I have overcome tough challenges before, and I am confident in my ability to navigate through the changes ahead."
